Count it All Joy - I Love My Mom

April 26, 2019
11:11 PM
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Today is a very special day. My precious Felicia delivered a very touching speech at the Mother's Day Tea that her teacher hosted for their class. The speech was about, "Why do you love your Mom?" She stood up in front of the stage with boldness and confidence. There was never a hint of shyness. While most of the kids just say a line or two, Felicia's was the longest and the most touching one. She actually asked permission from her teacher beforehand if she can make her speech longer 😂 She got her wish and did as she planned to. She makes me so proud. I cannot believe I raised such an amazing child. I asked what did I do to deserve her? But no, it's not what I did or will do, it's the goodness of my Father God to me. My Abba is so, so, good to me. She gave me this extraordinary girl.

The kids in her class performed poems and songs for the moms. One of my favorite speeches from a kid is, "I love my Mom because she makes a lot of money!" That was a good laugh for everyone in the room 😂 This is one of the days I will hold dear in my lifetime.

 

Count it All Joy - Happy Birthday Dad

April 13, 2019
Saturday, 11:08 PM
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My father-in-law turned sixty-eight today. The family gathered at his place for dinner and dessert to celebrate his birthday. The girls made him birthday cards (I forgot to take pictures). I am very blessed to have a father-in-law who is very loving, supportive, and funny. He is all I could ask for as his daughter-in-law. He is fun to be with and I can be me around him. There are no pretensions. I appreciate everything he does for us, always ready to extend his helping hands when needed. I pray that God will give him many more years to enjoy this life with us, especially his grandkids whom he adores so much.

F requested her Grampa for a donut with ice cream on top for dessert. Of course, Grampa doesn't say no.

Count it All Joy - Heaven on Earth

April 12, 2019
Friday, 11:25 PM
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On our way to the girls' karate class, the beauty of the sky overwhelmed me. The hues of gray and blue mixed together was so beautiful, and the rays of the sun shining through the thick clouds was so stunning. The sky was filled with clouds above us. Half of it were different shades of gray, the other half was white and sky blue. There are no words to describe the beauty of the sky today. All I felt and all I could say was, "heaven." That moment I experienced heaven on earth. Made me wonder if other people around saw it too. Simply amazing. I knew in my heart that was a treat from my Father God. So beautiful.

Crazy Hair Friday

Today's theme for Spirit Week is crazy hair! F had dinosaurs all over her hair and E decided to have a bird's nest. Crazy hair day is one of the school events I look forward to because I get to style their hair. F was very proud and excited that she gets to carry dinosaurs with her, while E thought she needed five birds 😂

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

The Reason of the Gospel

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God to salvation for everyone who believes, for the Jew first and also for the Greek."
Romans 1:16 (NKJV)

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What is the Gospel? What is in the Good News that the souls of the lost world desperately cry for it?

The Father's love and the gift of salvation tied with it is the Gospel. The unconditional love of the Father God is easily accessed to each and every child of His.' And you, dear friend, is His child. You are not exempted, you are not excluded. 

The famous Bible verse, John 3:16 sums it all—"Yes, God loved the world so much that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him would not be lost but have eternal life." (ERV)

One doesn't have to be perfect to be accepted by His Creator. To become perfect is totally impossible! If you wait for that time to come, you will leave this world in despair. The way to eternal life is easy. In fact, it's too good to be true that many people doubt it. Why? Because you don't have to do anything but only believe and accept. Believe in your heart that Jesus is the Son of God sent by Him to redeem you from sin and receive Him as your Lord and Savior. That's all you need. You do not have to do good things first and then present yourself to God so He will approve of you. You don't have to cleanse yourself from bad habits, attitude, character, or addiction beforehand so you can enter into His presence. God's love is not limited by what you do. It does not depend on whether you do good or bad. You were already loved even before the foundation of the earth. And that love was decided to have no condition attached to it. It's fixed and therefore cannot be changed. Whether you live your life in darkness or in the light, the love of your Father God hasn't changed a thing. It is the kind of love that the finite mind cannot fully understand.

Come as you are into His loving arms. Be bold in doing so for you are His beloved child after all. He has been patiently waiting for your homecoming. Cannot you feel it? Cannot you see it? See and feel it in your heart, then you will know. His arms wide outstretched, longing to wrap you in it. You are loved. You are treasured by the Creator of the universe who happens to be your Abba, Father. Once you were lost, but now you're found. Once you were blind, but now you see. You are a new creation. Rejoice child of God! The kingdom of God is at hand, freely given, all because of His enduring love for you!

Count it All Joy - Loved

April 9, 2019

Tuesday, 9:32 PM

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Disconnected

How are you self? I just realized today that I have not been connecting as much as I should with the Holy Spirit. I told Him about it. I told Him that I don't like it when I don't push myself on being mindful to stay connected to Him. He never condemned me despite of my weakness. Instead, I felt a gentle tap on my back telling me He's got me. I am loved after all. So loved. 

Blast from the Past

The girls' Spirit Week theme for the day is "Time Travel." E dressed up as the Doctor Who 11th Doctor and F is dressed in the rad 80s fashion look. It's funny how they owned their roles today. The teachers from their school were quite amused of F's look 😁 I told her that my favorite era for music is the 80s. It's the best of all time!

Dinosaur Shopping

I started shopping online for F's birthday. She wants a dinosaur birthday theme (of course). We thought of just doing it at home with few of F's friends from school and church. We used to hold birthday parties at home when they were little. It's exhausting but fun. I tend to overdo birthday theme decor. I guess if our house is bigger, I'd fill it with decoration 😂 I am glad I have the luxury of time to make decorations. We will for sure come up with games to play and maybe a dinosaur piñata. I got dino shaped balloons and a very cute set of dino cupcake wrappers. F is very excited about her birthday. As her mom, my heart's joy is to see her happy. She deserves all the happiness this world can give.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Revival

April 7, 2019

Sunday, 11:11 PM

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Quite a busy weekend for my family! We had the HSK Junior Leadership Kick-off Party yesterday! 14 kids (4th & 5th graders) came and a few parents stayed to find out what the program is about. We had lunch, desserts, worship, games, prizes, and an inspirational talk from my husband who leads the program. It's amazing to see these kids wanting to become junior leaders and work alongside the kids' ministry leaders! I heard that there were two more who submitted their application this morning. We're growing!

Today, I trained two of our new junior leaders how to support running an early childhood room. I can't praise enough how the kids were on top of their game. I gave them directions on what to do and they were awesome. I talked to the parents of one of them and reported how their son was owning his new title. I love seeing their joyful faces so full of pride for their child!

My E was there to help me train them and she did just a great job. I told my husband that I want to train the kids at the most four weeks, and by that time, they will have the confidence and know on how to play their role as junior leaders.

Our weekend was a win-win! Praise be to God who supplies us everything!

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Open Doors

April 5, 2019

Friday, 10:01 PM

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The girls are asleep on our bed. Ryan is at the monthly HSK Team Leader's Sloppy Friday. Here I am about to write the highlights of my day.

1. Ryan and I spent our breakfast with our HSK service leader K at First Watch. It's our monthly get-together, just the three of us. Every first of the month (depending on schedule changes), we find a place to share breakfast and mostly talk about where we are at HSK as servant leaders. Today, K talked to me about a new role that she wanted me to fill in. A role that allows me to step up from where I am right now as a leader of our Pre-K room. She sees potential in me that she believes other leaders will benefit and at the same time allows my God-given gifts to thrive and flourish. She asked if I would be fine with it.
   
   I told her before that I normally just want to support, not lead. When I took charge of the Pre-K room, it was new to me. I am leading, not supporting. My husband was with me the whole time I served the kids' ministry. I always let him lead. I was in the background to support. But it's a kind of support where I tell him 'do this, do that" (ha ha).
   
   Last Sunday, how I lead my room was tested. We doubled our number, and I had a new volunteer shadowing me. The new volunteer was there to learn from me and if I could not lead the room well, what is it that she can learn? Nothing. She'd probably get scared or discouraged. But God's.  grace was with me (and always is). I just have to ask for it and receive it in faith. All throughout, the Holy Spirit was there to guide me, teach me, and help me. I couldn't do it on my own effort. I need divine intervention.
   
   Because of how I lead that room, the feedback I got from the new volunteer opened a door for me and the ministry. K saw it and she wanted to utilize that potential.
   Am I ready? Honestly, there was no hesitation in my heart when she told me about it. I feel that confidence that I can do it. Not with my own effort, but because I know that God will equip me whatever I need for the glory of His name. I am excited! I am pump! This is a new season that my Abba, Father unfolds right before my eyes and the people He brought to my life at this time of sowing and reaping. All I can say is, His will be done. So help me, LORD.
   
2. Well, well, well. Felicia surprised us all today. Her tooth FINALLY fell out!!!! It's funny how a simple thing like this makes the family SO excited that you feel like you're in cloud 9!
   
   She told us that while biting into her pizza at lunchtime, she felt something weird. Yup! Because her tooth fell off! High fives and hallelujah to that!!!
   
   "My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Sad Sophie

April 4, 2019

Thursday, 10:31 PM

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1. Spent most of my day making Pokemon theme goody bags. I had to make 60 of them with 60 matching tags. I am so happy that I do not have to worry about fulfilling them later as I am done for now. Tomorrow is a new day. Another set of things to do.
2. I just got a forwarded email from my FIL about a happy customer. It's a joy to hear customers happy with the service rendered to them. All because of His grace.
3. My F drew a very sad looking cat. It's a cat with teary eyes and tears all over the floor. I told my Ry about it. He said that F drew what she was feeling tonight. She was feeling alone because she was all by herself doing her homework while E and I were watching Oak Island, and Dada was finishing work. F wanted the family to spend time together. But since everyone was doing their own thing, it made her sad. She later told me about her drawing, and how she expressed her feelings through it. I told her that what she did is actually one of the great ways to let her feelings out. F is actually good in expressing her feelings. She is honest about it and lets us know how she feels. That is what I want for her. Whatever she feels, positive or negative, I want her to tell us about it whether in verbal, writing, drawing, singing, or any other healthy means.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - He Hates God

April 3, 2019

Wednesday, 11:21 PM

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While getting ready for school this morning, F mentioned to me about a friend at school who told her that her friend at church said he hates God. I don't know what made him say that, but I told F that some kids don't really know what they're talking about or even mean it from their heart.

I explained that having a personal relationship with God is what makes us fall in love with God. The more we know Him, receive His love fully, experience His goodness and presence, spend time talking to Him are the ways that teach our hearts to love Him. I added that Mommy and Daddy or church can share things (information) about God, but those are all just knowledge based. It's all in the head. But when we experience Him in a deep, personal way, that's when our love for Him develops.

Growing up in a religious family, I was never taught about having a personal relationship with my Abba, Father. So I grew up having this thought of God so far away, up in heaven, sitting on the clouds, so high, I cannot reach. There was so much distance between me and Him.

May I teach my girls the truth about who God really is, that they will develop a deep, intimate relationship with Him as they grow up.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Big Heart

April 2, 2019

Tuesday, 9:57 PM

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My daughter E showed deep concern about one of her classmates at school. She said he was crying after being in the watch of one of the school staff while taking his AZMerit testing. He's one of the kids who need help in their academics. She's not happy as she described the staff's attitude towards students. She thinks she's a little too strict. She didn't know what happened with her classmate and the reason why he came back to class crying. I told her that maybe next time, he can talk to him. He probably needs someone to talk to.
E has a big heart. Issues such as this bother her and make her upset. She gets too concerned with other people that she takes it like she's involved in it. Sometimes she'd cry about it. She is very empathetic to people's plight. 

I pray that she will continue to show empathy to people and that she will always be willing to help those around her.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Full Sink

April 1, 2019

Monday, 9:42 PM

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One of my pet peeves is sink full of dirty dishes. I don't like it. I hate it. I have been training my girls to rinse their plate and put it away on the drying tray after they ate. Sometimes they remember, sometimes they don't. My job is to remind them each time they forget.

My husband knows I don't like our sink full of dirty dishes. I want them rinsed (if not washed) and set them aside on the sink counter, the drying tray, the stove top, as long as not in the middle of the sink. I don't know why this makes my mind crazy, but it does.

My husband is in charge of the dishes on weekends but didn't wash them on Sunday night. So, they were piling up. Got home today and most of the dishes were washed. Several of them were still on the sides and in the sink (as usual). I was fine for a few hours. But later before dinner, it started to annoy me. I didn't eat with them. Instead, I started washing dishes. My husband told me to eat but I said I was not hungry. But he knew what's going on. I am so glad that he didn't make my not eating an issue, otherwise, there will be an argument. Rather, he ate with the girls (who were almost done when he got to the table). When he was done, he got up and washed the rest of the dishes.

I appreciate him. There may still be unwashed dishes, but the fact that he knew what I was into and he did something to alleviate it, made me feel loved. I can get nasty and irritable sometimes. But it's something I do not enjoy doing. It's something that tears me inside. When I give someone an "attitude," a big part of me is shattered. I don't enjoy it, yet, there are times I listen to the cravings of my flesh.

But thanks be to God, I am forgiven. I no longer drown myself in condemnation as I used to. Rather, I thank my Father God that despite the mistakes I made, He forgives me and always loves me even if a sink full of dirty dishes turns my smile into a frown.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - We're Growing

March 31, 2019bl

Sunday, 8:02 PM

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Today was an exciting day at HSK 9 AM service. We doubled the number of kids in our Pre-K room! That was first time for me leading the room for the said service. We normally just have 8 to 9 kids, but this morning was different. We had 18 total!

I had a reservation on having a lot of kids in one room. I usually thought of how noisy and chaotic it will be. But by the grace of God, everything went so smooth and well today. We were able to follow through the story they learned today at Bible story time. I heard two of our kids shared to their parents what they learned in the story today, and that was a WIN! I was able to lead the room well with the help of my junior leaders (who happen to be my daughters) and a new volunteer shadowing me today.  Her presence was perfect timing! I definitely needed another adult with me in that room. She did such a great job. I love how she engaged herself with the kids which is a must for a HSK leader. She is very excited and looked forward to the next time she volunteers.

I believe that as the number of our kids grow in the ministry, God will also grow the number of volunteers. I love interacting with kids. I especially love it when I get to have a one on one with a kid, just giving all my undivided attention. I wish I could do it often, but with our growing number, this will be a little challenge for me. However, even if I cannot give them my whole hour for just one kid, I can divide my time and get to know each one more. Can't believe I memorize all their names 😁

God is good and He always provides what I need.

On the other hand, I am so proud of E and F for stepping up today in the room. Both of them kept the kids busy with games while waiting for parent pickups. We are raising leaders!

Count it All Joy - Exhausted But Joyful

March 30, 2019bl

Saturday, 8:18 PM

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Well, I forgot to write an entry last night. I was totally beat.

I volunteered to chaperone my 1st grader's field trip and it was a blast! My F was the happiest and excited because it's her fantasy land—the land of dinosaurs! She was mesmerized with all the gigantic, robotic dinosaurs that she saw at Pangaea. She never failed to raise her hand to answer a question from the tour guide who gave everybody fun facts about dinosaurs. She's a dinosaur fanatic and therefore knows a lot about dinosaurs! Mama beamed with pride as she answered questions (with funny hand gestures).

We had two other kids from her class and one was her best friend named Malcolm. He too loves dinosaurs like F. It's cute how they grabbed the same dinosaur plush at the gift shop without even talking to each other. They liked the same stuff!

Today was another great day. Both of the girls had their karate belt testing. They are now red belters! Yay! We're halfway to black belt! E is always on top of her karate class. F needs a little more focus and is really good at it when she does.

'Twas another busy afternoon. Ryan and I cleaned our front yard, moving the rocks to get rid of dead leaves piling underneath. We don't really work together a lot when it comes to this kind of activity. I am quite glad he went out and started raking. Our front yard looks cleaner and neat! And yes, we're both sore and very tired. Right now, I just want to jump on the bed and snore to my content.

I guess the girls are sleeping with me tonight on the big bed. They get to sleep with me once a week. Tonight is the night. I love it when the girls sleep with me. That feeling of having them wrapped in each of my arm feels so homey and relaxing. I normally wake up sore on both of my arms because of staying in the same position as I went to bed 😂

As I am typing this, I can still hear the girls talking. They're supposed to be asleep by now. Oh well.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Busy Day

March 28, 2019

Wednesday, 9:33 PM

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It was a busy day today. Lots of house cleaning, projects, and online listings (and still have a lot to list). 

Ryan suggested that we will just get Rudy's for dinner (yay, I didn't have to cook) when I told him that the dinner menu that was scheduled for today was eaten last night 😁 So we dropped by at Rudy's after karate class and brought the food home. 

I'm getting stuff ready for Felicia's field trip tomorrow. She is so excited about this field trip because it's a place where there are lots of dinosaurs. She told me which of the kids from her class belongs to our group. I heard that there's a lot of parents who volunteered. I cannot wait to see her HUGE 😁 when we get there. It's one of the beautiful sights I love to behold. I just want to freeze those moments. Thankfully we have cameras that can do it for me. I can actually freeze the moment with this awesome technology.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - That Wiggly Tooth

March 27, 2019

Wednesday, 10:01 PM

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So many emotions and tears shed tonight all because of one small tooth. We spent more than an hour trying to convince Felicia to pull out her wiggly tooth. I volunteered to pull it out using a string and tears started rolling down. So many explanations on her side and ours (parents). 

As a parent, it hurts to see your child emotionally and physically struggling because of the fear of pain. She kept begging us that she will pull it out herself. But days had gone by. We gave her a chance, but until now, it's not done. We're quite frustrated trying to find ways to convince her. I'm frustrated by how we dealt with it.

Felicia is very sensitive to pain. Little owies need band-aids. She has a very low tolerance to anything that causes physical discomfort.

Evie tried to help calm her sister down. She's very concerned about her. It melted my heart when she held her little sister's hands, asked her to close her eyes and calm down. She described to Felicia a dinosaur scene with candies and other fun stuff. Felicia smiled. Felicia laughed. They hugged.

That tiny wiggly tooth won tonight. It was very late when she went to bed. We decided to let go again. Her eyes were red. She's exhausted from crying and burdened emotions. We calmed her down and made sure that she knew she is so loved despite what happened.  "Tomorrow is a new day," she said. "I will wiggle my tooth again." I asked her Daddy to stay in their room until she's asleep. She needed it. My poor baby. It breaks my heart witnessing all that she went through. It's hard, but as parents, we need to do what we need to.

A hug of assurance from the big sister.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - The Girl in My Mind

March 26, 2019

Tuesday, 10:04 PM

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Beautiful day. My most favorite part of the day was spending time with my husband just talking about different things, mostly personal, church,  friends, life, and the book I am currently studying. We were talking about different kinds of tests (personality, IQ, SQ, EQ) and he hates personality test. I told him about the book that I'm using and how the author said that these kinds of test puts an individual in box. I mentioned to him about the Unique Qualitative Profile (UQ Model) that she developed and how the first few questions and my answers to the UQ made me very emotional.

I just found out that he doesn't create pictures in his mind. When he thinks about something, what he sees are words, not pictures. It's quite surprising to me. Oh my, the things I still don't know about my husband, and how it feels good to discover new mysteries about him. He said that he doesn't know how it works when he draws. I asked if he has pictures in his mind when he draws and cannot answer about it. So I asked him if he can draw what I saw of myself to answer UQ's question #3. I told him to draw it on the notebook I am using for the study. This is what he drew:

I am not able to type continually the things I wanted to say here because every now and then we stop what we're doing and talk (we're at the kitchen table right now, he's reading a John Maxwell's book). I am trying to finish this up.

I still have a lot to say, but it is getting late. Brief description about other things:

1. I got a notification from Facebook of a video of Felicia when she was two years old. She's so cute and chubby, playing mud, using it like play dough. I thank FB for these memories. Being reminded of how my girls were like years ago is nostalgic.
   
   
2. So proud of my Evie for doing the right thing at school today. She told me about an incident that happened in their music class where some kids in her class just threw carelessly the books that they used instead of putting them on where they're supposed to be. She and her best friend picked up the books and returned them to where the teacher asked them to return. That's my awesome girl!

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Just Like Eeyore

March 25, 2019

Monday, 9:55 PM

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How was my day had been? My body is exhausted. My back aches. I feel sleepy. Today is one of those days that feels normal. Like nothing spectacular happened. But if I close my eyes and try to replay what happened throughout my day, I see happy faces. I see beautiful smiles. I see tight hugs. I see frustration.  I see laughter. I see a pat on my back coupled with proud words, "That's my girl!" 

Today I was thinking about Adam and Eve. Did it ever cross your mind what kind of animal God killed to use its skin to cover His precious children from nakedness? Straight away I thought, it must be a lamb. I wonder why of all animals God chose a lamb? Is it because it looks so cute and innocent? My reasoning is so shallow, so human. God's reason is so much more than that. The symbol of a lamb plays a significant role in the story of salvation. It something that I need to dig deeper in a study if I want to find out why.

Meanwhile, Felicia after tucked in by their Dad to sleep came out minutes later and complained that her cow plush has a hole on the back. Last night while taking out laundry from the washer, I found a fuzzy thing that looked familiar. A cow's tail. She finally figured out that her cow was missing a tail. She laughed like crazy after we told her what happened last night. She thought it was silly. Her Daddy said her cow is like Eeyore who lost his tail.

I sewed it back on and tomorrow when she wakes up, she will be delighted that her cow has its tail, back. 😍

Just like Eeyore who lost his tail.

All better!

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5

Count it All Joy - Welcome Back Home

March 24, 2019

Sunday, 10:08 PM

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Highlights of the Day

1. Today was a great day. After three weeks of not being able to attend church service, I was finally back. I had been struggling spiritually lately. Church service plays a very important role in my spiritual life. There is something powerful inside the building, surrounded by church family, singing my heart out at worship, listen to the teaching, and much more. The church atmosphere is very contagious. It gives me the sense of peace and joy deep within my soul. Seeing beautiful smiles, shaking hands and saying hello, hearing praise reports, lifting up my voice to heaven for prayer requests from church members, seeing familiar faces—they are food to my soul. It feels so good to be back home.
   
   Moreover, I was so grateful to see a friend who I have not seen in a while. I am happy to know what is going on with her life, and I am hoping I will see her every Sunday.
   
2. Felicia asked me several times today if I can play with her. I was working something for my online store and told her to wait a little bit. I like it when she bugs me about playing with her. I need a reminder for it. I normally don't play with them. I normally don't ask them with my own accord if they want to play with me. I don't know why. I am not intentional about it. Makes me feel guilty as their Mom. This is one area that I need more grace of.
   
   We ended up playing after dinner in their bedroom with her Ate. It's funny that she named two of her dinosaurs after our pastors 😂. I took videos of them. We laughed so much, until it was almost time for bed and I asked her about her wiggly tooth. I wanted to pull it out. Explained to her about my concerns and she just cried and cried. She's so scared about getting hurt. She even asked me to pray over her about it. That poor baby, her tears were racing after another without stopping. Her Daddy and I talked to her and made sure that her heart was at peace before she went to bed. New day tomorrow, something needs to be done.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience." - James 1:2-5